8:38 PM
Saturday, February 26, 2005
... Sigh ... ... Yes ...... It's another one of those horrible nites of my life ...... again...... The day wasn't bad actually... nope... i don't think it's bcause of anything that happened today that i'm feeling moody... the exchange didn't turn out to be that bad actualli... we didn't ma lu ourselves... so if we continue our pract seriously we might do well this year and make up for the loss... ... if wad they say bout practice making perfect that is.... ... life's contradicting... take for example... practice make perfect... then... nobody's perfect... see? so then wy's practice? nono... don't get me wrong... this is just an example... purely... Contradiction... and behind all that.. lies... (the cursor's blinking in front of me... waiting for my next sentence... but my hands don't seem to want to move... though i'm making it...) i'm just finding fault again... that's why probably i'm moody again... tonight is about this unspecial unloving void life... everything feels empty tonight... yes... sigh... it's so difficult growin up... that i'd rather remain as a one year old... but i'm 15 years too late fer that... i don't want to think bout anything and everything... yet the more i don't wanna feel whatever's happening in my life the more i feel it... and the harder reality hits me.... sigh... another of life's contradiction... sigh.......i wanna hit myself numb... to all and everything... but nothing seem to obey and go my way... my life... my destiny but wad is it truely??? ...
8:45 PM
Tuesday, February 22, 2005
K... now it's time to kb scientists... wad's the problem with them... (side note: i think i keep finding fault in things this few times...) ... welll... to begin.. they are too tied down to the mindset of logic... everything happens for a reason... thus there has to be logic and all this kindaf stuff... not everything has logic in them... spirits for eg... the ppl don't invent the word fer nothing you know... but then scientist come along and say that they don't exist.. because there isn't proof... they probably think that to believe in supernaturals is to go against the law of logic... cause the talks bout spirits are just illogical.... what they don't know is that they are just a bunch of inflexible blockheads who are too tied down to earth by gravity...(they believe that as dumb newton found gravity.... ohhh.... that's sad...) they just try too hard to not believe in illogic but to not believe in the first place is due to the fact that the alreadi believe the "myth" in the first place...Definition of Blockhead aka cha tao : Ppl who believe too much in logic, stubbornly refuse to be flexible and are hopelessly illogical themselves.... .... Are you one of them? ... ??? ...