10:32 PM
Friday, December 17, 2004
just got home from orchard.... went to see my cousin perform and wanted to watch sas concert at the paragon there one... *sighs*... never got to watch lorz... know wad.. wasted trip... we give the place shua la... here got one stage there got another... walk and find till wanna die liaoz lorz... sian... and in the end... *sighs again*
i think i'm going to sleep realli soon... can't stand it lorz... wei theng's back today... though he's still sick... so poor thing... think he dying to play captain's ball just now during drills la... haha...
k... i going to sleep liaoz.... bye... haha... tomorrow still got vjc concert... then kor playing... so have to buy flower for him... hope he doesn't feel too sad... haha...
10:05 PM
Thursday, December 16, 2004
*sigh*...
*sigh*...
And more sighs....
seriously i don' know wad i'm doing... abit.. is probably bcause i can't sleep before 10.30 nowadays.... alot is because i have no direction in life rite now... or i can't see it.... ritez... sometimes i wonder why i'm going one way or another... sometimes i just wanna stop wadeva i'm doing... most of the time i can't though.... i don't know anything rite this moment... everything that seemed important suddenly doesn't seem so anymore... but i'm not talking about those...
lonely.
lonesome.
lost.
why am i doing this?
??
i don't see the value of doing all this.... but i still do.. i think i very tired... yet so awake... (sound familiar ritez?... maybe not...) no one to talk to... i think i not very extrovert... i'm introvert by nature one.... it's only that if you don't mix around ritez ppl think you cold.... not that i don't like crowds la... but my mood siao siao one... when i really want ppl to talk to normally there isn't anyone around... then feel so empty lyk that... though most of the time i with ppl i don't feel that i wanna be alone... sometimes i can't wait for night to come... alone... i smile... i laugh about... but face ma... lyk a mask lyk that only that it's in your very skin... hypocritical.... i think i very long never write like that already... feeling surpisingly antisocial tonight... after a quite... sort of... sociable day... couldn't wait for the nite to come... yet can't wait for this long nite to end... can't make the morning to come... and still... i'm here... without company...
Can't make the day pass,
Can't tear down the dreadful mask,
Can't just be me,
The one i yearn to see.
Can't wait for the night to come,
Can't wait to see the stars shine in the sapphire sky,
Can't find light in the sky,
Wishing for the morning to come.
Forget it... i don't know why i bother staying online.... sigh... wadeva... i'll be fine tomorrow... cause it's another
nite.
6:20 PM
money probs.. ya... esp when that phone bill of mine came last month... haha... i started hols with $80 ad i'm left with $30... to pass christmas without buying any presents... hope daddy can sponsor me some money la... obviously... stupid singtel.. change their billing method also don't inform ppl... haiz... now i know why so many ppl all go work this hols... haha... speaking of $$... wen jia asked how much money i have in my bank acc... seriously speaking after much thought... i have no bloody idea... my bank book i don't keep myself one.. my mum don't let... i'm oblivious of how much is in there... but making a guess... it can't be very little... at least i think so... i think grandpa left some money for me and my sister to go U... haha.... going to eat dinner soon... so i think i stop first... i think sectionals today the progress not very... or not fast enough la... sigh....
10:15 PM
Wednesday, December 15, 2004
Haiz... damn tired sia... today we play for very long... till mi teeth oso ache... haha... kor's frien come teach us things during sectionals... i think he quite shocked to see that our section got so many girls... esp today no guys come... jun han on hols just come back a few hours ago... wei theng still sick i think... then i don't know where benedict went... haha... we go long john eat lunch today... but come back still not late... the person serving got prob lorz.... we order liaoz then she say must wait... then stephanie go same counter as me and christie order the same thing she come back with food first.... haha... silly counter girl... haha... i think i going to sleep realli soon... tomorrow still got sectionals.. plus my sister waiting to use the com... i think... wonder who will come tomorrow.. i know jh won't be coming... haha... next week concert liaoz... really excited yet scared... wad if... we don't do well? ... if the seats aren' even half full? oh well... i think no point worry that much now... never mind la... oh ya... hope wei theng gets well soon... haha...
9:30 PM
Tuesday, December 14, 2004
It's been so long... so long since i last blogged... but still yeah... i'm back... been pretty busy lately...(oops... that was my sis...) with the upcoming band concert... christmas is coming along... wow... the last time i remember actually buying presents was... argh... valentines... owww.... time flies i tell you... and now with a hole in my pocket... it's christmas yet AGAIN... not complaining still...
oh.... i'm down with flu... haha... see how flu virus spread notz? haha... though i don't know why i'm laughing... my dad's foreign "godparents" are coming to town... oh yeah... on the 27th this month... *grumbles*
that way they cannnot attend the concert... my mum seems extremely excited about it... haha... wonder wad they look lyk now...
hmm....
that's all for now i think...