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2009-08-06T11:21:00.008+08:00

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Hol's End

2009-08-03T14:26:00.001+08:00

As usual, holidays come to an end... Been Lazing around learning stuff not working... haha... Dunno whether I look forward to starting school but I guess I've got no choice... Haha... Invested some effort into learning how to make jewellery using wires and stones and crystals... Got hooked alr... Well... going to prepare for driving soon... having late lesson today... Praying that I can get the hang of parallel parking cause it sounds hard... At least I hope it's as easy as vertical parking... Yup Yup...

2009-06-15T13:25:00.003+08:00

Been away for so long but I still dun have the mood to blog so I shall just make a list of wad I've been doing...
1. Spending time with my bf
2. The Sims 3
3. Anime anime anime...
4. Reading
5. Driving(my 8th lesson alr)
6. Spending time with friends and family and some shopping
Yup.. That's all from my all so boring life... Haha... Next sem's going to be hectic again... But I hope I can do well too... Byeb...

2009-05-05T17:34:00.012+08:00

My Reading List:

1.Blood Brothers by Nora Roberts
2.The Hollow by Nora Roberts
3.The Pagan Stone by Nora Roberts
4.Kuroshitsuji Manga Volume 3
5.Kuroshitsuji Manga Volume 4
6.Kuroshitsuji Manga Volume 5
7.Kuroshitsuji Manga Volume 6
8.Belgarath the Sorcerer by David Eddings
9.Polgara the Sorceress by David Eddings
10.The Chronicles of Thomas Covenant by Stephen R. Donaldson

I'm free!!!!

2009-04-28T18:46:00.002+08:00

I'm finally free... haha... Cause it's the end of the exams and the start of the hols... immediately went to cut my hair today... really... a good haircut does so much good to your mood... haha... anyway i feel so good today that i think i'll go back to the same hair dresser again next time... haha... had sinful stuff for lunch today.... bakerzin's warm choc cake, rasberry and choc cupcake... passion fruit and rose syrup cupcake... so nice to eat... haha... gtg... update again soonzzz....

My new hairstyle...

Personality test

2009-03-04T15:48:00.006+08:00

This is some test I got from my tang jie's blog... Just did for fun... Haha... Anyway, having a slack slack day today... my tutor just postponed IT quiz to next week so I'm off early from class... Visited the RFID centre today at simtech... quite cool all the technology that they have using RFID.. yup...

Here's the link for the test...

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

Your view on yourself:

Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:

You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education:

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

2009-02-24T12:19:00.003+08:00

Feeling very very random now... Found a japanese name generator... Haha... So did my name and my darlin's.. Haha...

His:

My authentic japanese name is 千羽 Chiba (thousand feathers) 真一 Shinichi (one truth).
Take your real japanese name generator! today!
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Mine:

My authentic japanese name is 秋本 Akimoto (true autumn) 恵美 Emi (blessed with beauty).
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haha... so fun... then again I found my first name translation in jap... it reads shein... And it's translated as 神惠 which means God's Grace (Shinkei)... Sounds nice too... Haha... Akimoto Shinkei... 秋本神惠... haha... gtg... bye...

2009-02-24T11:15:00.004+08:00

Didn't realise how boring just studying for whole days on end would be... Till now... Ok... I think the weather's getting to me... It's been so hot and dry for the past month... Haven't even seen black clouds since I don't know when... Haha... And now... The gloomy blackness of the clouds are here to haunt me for two days in a row... Where were they when I wanted it to rain?!?! So horrible... Anyway... Stuck at home studying Biz Law... Going out tml... I so pray that it doesn't rain tomorrow... I miss him alr!!!! Oh man.... Back to studying... Got to finish reading before I can start doing the written assignment.... Haiz... Sayonara...

The Val' Day Lunch we cooked together...

happy!!!

2009-02-20T11:15:00.002+08:00

In a rather light mood now... Studying in my kitchen... Alone at home... Feeling so free... Ok... At least free from school for a week... Doing maritime math revision now... got a quiz after the recess... Feeling happy now cause of a message i received from my tang mei... happy for my biao jie... wanted to go visit her yesterday at the hospital but didn't in the end... Happy that she's out anyway... feel like slacking now... but still have work to do... hoping my friend reply me about the business law stuff... anyway... the day seems good... so i'll just go back to catching up on my revision... bye... here's a photo from my valentine's.... haha...

2009-02-04T20:30:00.003+08:00

Being random... Just downloaded GIMP so playing around with my photos... Haha... Anyway... Sort of got inspired by my cousin's family photo so decided to see whether I could get an equivalent effect... Haha... Turned out quite well for my first try.... Haha...

Happy Chinese New Year!!!!

2009-01-27T11:03:00.002+08:00

Happy CNY!!! Chinese New Year's just going to be over for all school goers etc etc... Had a wonderful but tiring time... Reunion dinner was at tang's house and we had all the 7 fairies and family eating together!!! Then we played saboteur and I won!!! Haha... Anyway it was wonderful spending time with family...

Yesterday was better... had buffet in my house so everyone was here even my cute little nephews and niece... arranged to visit my 3 oldest cousins on sat... served the guests and then played board and card games in the afternn... played citadels, saboteur and ticket to ride... then had dinner.... we moved the tv to the kitchen so that we could watch the little nyonya.. haha.... cool... and we played saboteur again... haha... gtg... bye...

2009-01-19T14:56:00.004+08:00

Yet another week has began... Been slacking all weekend with no mood to do work.. mayb it's cause sian or cause cny's around the corner... wadever it is i'm doing tutorials now as a result of it... not that i mind since i'm stuck in hall now... my slackest day of the week today... only 2 hours of class... haha... and it's like boring since everyone's been doing it in math for like the past 4-5 years of their life... What's "it" right? It's well... limits and continuity and differentiation... Horrible isn't it? what's worse is the lecturer spent like and hour on limits and continuity.. Then used it to explain differentiation.... After that he said... " actually it's of no use, you'll see later... just to let you understand the concept... " Haha... I was like I know got no use later cause everyone knows how to directly differentiate... Haha... Back to tutorials... Biz law tutorial... then math the maritime technology... which all of my friend say they dunno how to do... Even wit the notes... Honestly, I think the technology notes are useless... And the worse thing is I didn't take physics in A's... To think I thought I'd escaped physics forever!!!! ARGH!!!! Tasukete!!!

P.S. At least the good thing about this weekend was shopping... Haha... Went out with my sis to bugis on fri afternn to get her new year clothes... She got a new dress... So jealous... cause I think I like it too... haha... Bought my compact powder refill and a Lucidol curling mousse... Finally got my Border's Prefered Card too!!! So happy... Got discount due to the card and cut out coupon on the news paper... Bought Dead until Dark by Charlaine Harris with the discount... the book came down to $11.30... Haha... So happy!!! Just done reading the book yesterday... (:

Yet another sem...

2009-01-12T16:40:00.003+08:00

This is yet the start of another sem... ok... one week late post.... but all the same... haha... cause last week didn't have much lessons... went home everyday!!!! haha... yay!!! anyway take like 5 mods this sem so my timetable is slacker... haha... bought textbooks today to start on the mugging process... still thinking whether should buy the maths one not... haha... my brain's telling me to just buy... haha... feeling too relaxed right now... but must get down to doing tutorials now... sianz... haha... gtg... byeb....

oh ya!!!! my sister's back... haha... missed my mei mei....

Merry Christmas

2008-12-24T22:19:00.002+08:00

Merry Christmas to all those that celebrates... Haha... I don't but still I enjoy the presents... Haha... Thanks to dar dar for buying me one... Haha... So sweet lor... Lalala... Being randon here... This is so short... Bye...

P.S.: I can't believe that twilight's ranking lost out to ip man!!! and all cause fans went to see sneaks?!?!?!?! If this is so, what's the point of having sneaks if the first anticipate-able movie of the hols can't be labeled Singapore box office No.1?!?!?

New look for a new year...

2008-12-22T14:18:00.003+08:00

I finally got down to changing my blogskin after years and years of use for the previous one.. Not that I grew tired of it but cause I want a new bright look for my disused, lack of visitors, boring blog... Haha... That's probably true though... I think the only people that look her are my cousins now... And my sweet... Haha... Anyway that's why the links are pathetic in the links section... So if any wandering souls of my friends find your way here and want me to link you back tell me... Leave a tag... I'll be glad to do so... But then again in present times I think there won't be people wondering here anyway...

Well... It's the end of the year again and here I am making new wishes and all... So my wishlist has sort of changed... Haha... Anyway it looks more like a booklist to me... New resolutions that I can't keep??? I think they're probably the same resolutions... Like study harder, etc etc... All the boring stuff... So I won't bother making them this year... Christmas is round the corner and then the New Year and Chinese New Year... Haha.. Loads of festivities... Hope that everyone I know has a good year ahead and loads of good luck...

(:

One sem has passed...

2008-12-02T14:48:00.003+08:00

Well... Here I am again... I always say that don't I? Haha... But I guess I'm not far from it... As in saying that I'm back again... On this lazy afternoon, I'm sitting here thinking of what to do, wondering where my life is taking me... It's a beautiful warm day here right now, for the second day in a row now... And I'm inside enjoying the air con... I guess I'm going to give people an update on my life now...

Firstly, school...

Anyway, school's great... I've met some really nice friends this semester... No... That's an understatement... They're great friends and we're sort of stuck together for the next 4 years... Considering that we're about more than half the batch of maritime studies with business major students... Haha... We've had tough times together.. With all the projects that nearly killed us... But next sem seems fine enough... Having a 4 day week again... Free fridays!!! Super cool... Haha... Hall staying was great too I think... Not as eventful as some of my friends that practically don't sleep... But it saves the trouble of travelling... Going to be staying in my hall for another sem... Haha... Didn't join stuff as there wasn't much time... Anyway... I shall just stay till I can't... Then I can travel to school with Rachel there after... (: Went out with them yesterday... Haha... Cycling... My butt hurts horribly now... Then packeted dinner and watch ten brothers together.... Haha...

Next, my family...

Nothing new actually... Just that my sister's in Beijing studying for 6 weeks... Haha... I know... I think she's mad too... Who wants to study during the hols??? But then again, I guess it's a good experience for her... And she's praying for it to snow... Hope she's making the right choice... Cause she said she nearly froze her ear off this morning... Wahahah!!!! (Sounds evil... I know too...) Yea... But I do miss the noise she makes at home... (Aww...) Well... Wondering about biao jie too... Worried for her... But I hope she pulls thru this episode in life.... Gambatte ne onee chan!!!! 加油!!! Going to meet my cousins for some ladies night thing on monday at waraku!!! Haven't been there yet but I think it'll be good... Haha... Poor mei mei... Missing out on the gathering... Oh ya... And I got a new and sleek tv!!! I can even watch avi videos on it!!!! Haha... Yahooooooo.... Bet it'll be nice to watch animes on it too...

About my dar dar...
We're still as lovey dovey as ever... Haha... It's been tough on him these past months... With all his work in the office and tuition classes he's been taking (thanks goodness it's over... though now he's teaching his cousin tuition... and taking guitar lessons)... And of course, the limited amount of time that we can spend together... Plus the mountains of homework that I need to do every weekend... But thanks darlin... For all your support this term... Without it, it would have been much harder to pull through... Muackz...

Well... About me???
I haven't changed I guess... Nothing that I can point out... Haha... Well... I do anime Chinese-English translations for Phantom-subs now... Haha... That's a change... Still hunting down books to read... Finish the Twilight saga 2 times over... Can't wait to catch the movie... Haha... OMG EDWARD CULLEN!!!!! Was at the MPH expo sale the other day and got a David Edding's series... The Belgariad... Got 4 out of the 5 books at the sale... Have to hunt down the 2nd book though... So that I can start reading... Haha... Meow... And got a few books by David Gemell too... Haha.. Funny isn't it? All the David authors write good fantasy books... Haha... I was on the train the other day and I was riding Winter Warriors by Gemell and this guy came up and asked to see my book cover... Haha... Then he was like "oh... old one..." And I was like "umm... ya... old one..."... In my heart I was like "ya old one... so????" Haha... It was so amusing... Dar dar laughed when I told him... Haha...

Anyway... Back to my books... They're calling for me....

Ja... Mataashita...

photos

2008-07-15T09:56:00.004+08:00

Well here's some of the photos of the botanic gardens...

Back-ku....

2008-07-14T13:24:00.002+08:00

Well here i am back again.... just got back from hk bout a week ago... slacked around till now... reading a lot... finished my nora roberts "In the Garden" trilogy alr... Think she quite a skillful writer...

Anyway, hk was wonderful for me... the weather was hot.. uber hot... like singapore... didn't really rain after the first day we got there and i think after we got back home it started raining all over again... so lucky... anyway got quite a few things back from the place though the sales just staring only... and when i say just starting i mean it using my experience at dfs... so everything is like 30% discount only.... can't complain cause i still got loads of stuff... like spammed the esprit outlet for free one... i spent like one third of my money there... Well... it is cheaper there then it is in singapore... anyway got a cough there on my 3rd or 4th day... my mummy has now got a theory that germs spread thru smses... cause dar dar's got a cough bout 2 days prior to that.... well... life's mysteries number xxx... bubble... bought like 4 tops for dar from hk... and they fit just like i thought they did.... cool...

last wed was my darlin's 19th birthday... planned the entire day out for him like he wanted... first we went to the botanic gardens then found a spot with wonderful view for our picnic lunch that i prepared... like 3 types of sandwiches... tuna mayo, ham and lettuce and the only thing that i know how to prepare from scratch egg mayo... the view was amazing and we had like a hundred photos taken with my new camera that i bought after hk and months of deliberation before that... though it's also a canon digital ixus 80 like tang's one i like it as much... cost me 429 and it also came with all the freebies that the pc show previously gave out... and i love it cause it's pink.... haha... my dar dar loves my camera too... keeps playing around with it... haha... then we caught get smart at cathay cineleisure... super fun to watch... got all the stupid stuff the guy does... after that we went to suntec for our dinner appt at ichiban boshi....nice place to eat at... and we bought a dockers belt for him before that... wasa wonderful day ending with a usual walk thru the esplanade park up till opposite fullerton before getting on the bus and heading home... pics will come up soon... haha... anw gtg now... bb..

I'm Back... Yet Againz...

2008-06-21T19:06:00.002+08:00

Goodness... Can't believe how long I haven't been here alr... Anyway it's my 6th month working in dfs alr... Seriously time seems to fly.... In just 3 more days i'll be on annual leave alr... So nice right? Slack at home still got money to get... This month's sales not bad most likely can get high commission this month... Bought a Marc by Marc Jacobs sunglass at discounted price... It's such a steal... Bought some cosmetics too... Going to miss all the aunties and uncles there so much... All of them so nice to me one... meow.... So sad... Dun worry aunties i'll come back and visit...

Going to hk next sunday... going to shop till i drop... for clothes and shoes and accessories and bags... argh... that's going to be so much money... Ah well... Down side of it is that i'll miss my darlin so much.... One week without him... Think it's going to be hard for him more though... Going to be his birthday soon... Going to buy nice present for him from hk...

Anyway, got into NTU maritime studies with business major... It's going to be so new to me that i have to buck up and study hard... I still love biology though no matter wad... but i don't think that i'll be able to do research all my life... Going to bunk with hui min at the hostel... so cool... can't wait for school to start but i may retract the statement for all I know after a month back to studying... still don't know wad to join for cca... think wanna do community service kind of thing now... cause didn't do a lot before... anyway going to miss playing in the band... I alr do actually.. All the fun laughter hardwork blood and tears.... yup yup... gtg... meanwhile another photo of me and my darlin....

Dust....

2008-04-29T22:11:00.002+08:00

Well... I'm back and I'm cleaning out the dust and grime on my blog... Think it's been eons since i've blogged and thought that i should... So here I am occupying myself blogging again... Ok... I'm not occupying myself cause I'm actually online with my hone...

Firstly, there's some sad thing that happened over the weekend that makes ppl realise that you have to cherish every moment with those you love... hope things will be fine...

Then to my happy things...

Recently celebrated my first anniversary with my darlin... My darlin bought me a beautiful diamond necklace which probably dented his meagre pay... Although synthetic i guess but it's worth the thought... Cause it's all the effort that really counts... and it's beautiful to me... This is probably first year sentimental value.... muackz... And we had jap at sakae again as usual... Salmon feasting has always been our love anyway... Our anniversary photo...

Then have to back track a little to Sunday 13 april... Went to take the singapore flyer... Cause daddy got discount on the tix... Ask my pillar of support and endless fun and laughter to go with me... Really the sights were spectacular... Could see all our favourite places... Fullerton... Esplanade... City lights looked great... And a warm arm, at the highest point of the ride, to fall into was a plus... & there was plus plus too... Jealous rite? Go find your own darlins girls...

Our Singapore Flyer Trip

Our fav places date...

2008-01-26T19:05:00.000+08:00

My dar dar go in alr... Feeling empty without darlin's presence... Usually with off days i'll have darlin around me all day... But today so different... wake up by myself without the usual call, going to band instead for staying at home... Just feels weird... Got some regrets in letting him go but not like he wanna go like that... have to learn to be strong lor... wad to do... guess there's no choice... Waiting for darlin to come home... Bear bear and heart heart all miss dar dar like me... Jia you dar... You can do it... Will always support you... bubble....

2008-01-21T22:15:00.000+08:00

Realised the best thing in this world is to have someone bring you all the way to work and send you home from work... Love my darlin so much for doing that for me... Poor dar dar have to wait for 5 hours for me to finish my shift... Bubble... So sweet right? Haha... My darlin going in soon alr... So dread it... Think will miss him so much... Not think i guess... It's true that i'll miss my dar dar loads... So saddening cannot see my dar dar as much once he goes into the army alr... Haiz... Friday dun come k? Got imagine my darlin sitting at mcafe reading writing and all that... So sweet...

P.S. I love you...

2008-01-17T23:19:00.000+08:00

Me!
Dar Dar!
Staring suspiciously at the hotdog...
Ber??

My Prezzie... Cause i guai that's why i have and you dun... lol... so random...

2008-01-17T22:31:00.000+08:00

wah..
goodness gracious...
look at how thick the dust is here...
ah...
got spider web...

proves how long i haven't blogged...

well....

I'm Back-ku....

haha..

anyway i found a job alr...
been working like crazy... kkz not exactly crazy stand till leg pain cause i working as high class sales associate... which in other terms sales girl la... haha... got stable job can le la... the ppl there all so nice to me... selling marc by marc jacobs bags i dfs now...anyway i'm happily working and on my off days and night shift days i keeping my dar dar company... on the other hand it seems like my darlin keeping me company... haha... either way we're happy ppl...

went to see the giant giant ikea and courts today...
had one of the best time there though it's quite random to go there on a date... lol... and we actually bought new shower curtains cause mummy wanted new ones... haha... bought a red one... so random... ah well... took random pictures too...

lunch was random and wonderful...
random cause we eat at like almost 3 and we just had swedish meatballs and chicken wings...
RECOMMENDING: whatever we ate for lunch and the $1 hot dogs!!!
haha...

anyway i had the most wonderful time today and beautiful memories...
gtg...
bye...

my top 3 likes... food that is...

2007-11-29T22:20:00.000+08:00

no.3: the superdog....

haha... went to vivo today to shop for prom stuff... bought a dress and a golden clutch bag... out of point... i'm going to talk bout food here... had a wonderful lunch.. at superdog... some hotdog fastfood place... super nice hotdogs... so satisfying... very long nv eat nice food like that, that's probably why feel so blessed... haha... then everyone should just go eat the fries... imba... the chili they make alr quite nice alr... topped on fries with melting mozarella... highly satisfying... bubble...

no. 2: the warm choc dessert from bakerzin

this one is the ultimate one... melts in your mouth and make you feel hyper happy.... of course you'll feel happy.... it's choc... meant to make you happy... but all the same that's my favourite dessert...

no.1: salmon... raw salmon... anything that's salmon!!!!

salmon salmon and more salmon... give me how much i'll eat how much... enuf said...

but that are just the likes... where are the lovezzz???

well i only got one... haha... my dar dar.... :P

it's finally over....

2007-11-25T16:07:00.000+08:00

there's nothing better than having free myself from the chair that i've grown roots on my study chair and my arm chair... though i still haven't exactly found a way to free myself thoroughly from the arm chair cause of my habit of reading on it... finally i have my freedom to do what i like and that my sis can't deny me of using the laptop now that i finished my exams... it's not my fault that her desktop crashed again... the a levels have been totally cruel to the state of my body... eye rings, acne (on my alr sensitive skin) fats... loads of them due to my inactivity... sighs... i shall get back into shape soon... did a mask yesterday... quite fun... haha... nothing special i guess but since it's my ______'s first time doing it too it's been enjoyable looking at white faces which totally can't be stressed unless you want wrinkles... lol... been out for 2 consecutive days... after the exams that is... looked at a few dresses for SDD alr... but haven't found the best one to get yet... this is so troublesome... anyway... having fun being free now... missing my one and only now... bubble.... gtg... bye...

happy birthday to me?

2007-09-08T20:01:00.000+08:00

this is a little late post for my birthday... never ever had a birthday that i took all day into studying... even if it was during my sec 4 year i took a day off for myself... wad to do... this year too impt ma... had a simple dinner with my family and had my special one with me all day... thanks to everyone for their wishes in throughout the day... thanks to the wonderful person in my life for spending the day studying with me... although it's not much but it's still good enough a memory for my birthday... got to go study again... hope dun get too stressed again... haiz.. byeb...

hey

2007-07-02T22:04:00.000+08:00

well.. just here to blog... dunno bout wad too... but guess i going to not blog for a while so might as well do it...
cts was pretty depressing as it got to the end... cause apparently i am so going to fail chem... math is not that depressing but still that paper can do better one lor... wad's wrong with me? haiz... that's why i am not going to talk bout it... meow... sorry... bad habit... haha... but someone likes hearing it... lol... anyway went to watch transformers today... pretty nice graphic... emo robots too... sounds so wrong... how can robots be emo? but ya... this is the perfect example of exceptions that happen in the life of fiction... not that it's bad... who doesn't wanna own a bumblebee for car? anyway watching transformers is like going back to childhood days when all i do is watch such cartoons... like batman, x men, and all those cartoons of the same generation... i love those cartooning days when i have nothig to worry about... result and all those kind of stuff... even health worries a teen 17 years of age... when you're a kid worrying bout health seems like something your grandparents do... but nowadays everyone does that.... haha... so the best times of your life are being kids... once you get entangled in the crazy world of reality you'll have to keep going or you'll umm... get eaten by pros... something along that line... it's just a description... haha... i wanted to say you'll probably die like megatron... but that's totally off the point... guess i'm crapping alr... anyway good luck to everyone for their results... and i guess i can let qq happi a little... i love my darlin so much... and that probably makes my dar happi too...

2007-06-19T21:42:00.000+08:00

I'm posting this for our entertainment sake onli ppl... In house jokes from the trip included.

Top ten terms used in Redang (in no order of merit... meow...)

10. Transformer (our no.1 in house joke))

9. Sun tan

8.Abrasion

7.Exposure (don't exactly think we used this a lot though)

6.Argh!!! (rmb the overturned bug tang was trying to save??)

5.Tan line

4.Cam-whore (i'd say there's 500 pictures at least dun you think??)

3.muah-chee (yes the foodstuff... onli that now it refers to us and the sand... haha)

2.we're late! (cause we're waking up half an hour after the alarm rings everyday)

1.we're not going to swim at Singapore beaches alr!! (not that we ever done that!)

2007-06-19T20:59:00.000+08:00

okay... i'm finalli back from redang... the view there is like absolutely fantastic... it's like a page out of some book... somewhere far away from all the stressful influences that life always brings.. yet there seemed to be something missing to make the scenery perfect... anyway... had a good time there... got a slight tan and a lot of burns.... hope i dun peel... piling on the baby lotions like their free or something... anyway here are some photos from the trip... my enhancing technique totalli off one so dunno the photos look good not.. haha... going back to study for cts alr... nitez...

2007-06-10T10:12:00.000+08:00

suddenly realised that i haven't blogged in ages... okay... it's cause no time and got nothin to blog bout... haha... life's peaceful and perfect at the moment so i hope it stays that way... anyway going out in a little while cause my cousins and i are going shopping for swimwear for next week's redang trip... post nice photos then... haha... anyway... time is flying past so fast that i can barely stop to think wad life is like when it moves slowly... but that would probably come at the end of the year after this hectic year is over... anyway i'll have all the time to myself and... (haha... finish the line yourself...) gtg... my sis wants the com now...

ps for tlited photos have to go turn it the right way up when i got time... haha...

going out soon... busy week...

2007-05-06T11:26:00.000+08:00

it's been such a busy week... syf is coming alr... well.. it's just nxt week... oh my... prac every single day... not that i'm complaining... i just wished i had more time to spend on other stuff... a lot more time in fact... considering that i still have chem review test on thurs and evolution test on tues... (hope mr foo changes the day to another week later like he's considering on doing... or i'd probably have to flunk the first bio test in my life that i got no time to study for...) aparently ks seems like she give up and preparing to flunk alr... well... i still have my main motivation to go on... so i'll try hard not to flunk both at all... life seems so much brighter & colourful... i can't believe i've nv seen so much colours in my life before... life's probably nv so perfect and i dunno wad might happen since i'm enjoying wadever i have now... sound like some dark clouds in the distance but there's nothing that i know bout... it's just in my nature to worry cause everything seems so perfect in the meantime... hope times like this last... haha... (and dun worry cause i'm fine realli...) well... got to go prepare alr... going out soon for band prac...

2007-04-15T23:33:00.000+08:00

i dunno wad i just did... but it feels so right...

this date is something to remember... 15th april... lol...

2007-04-15T22:37:00.000+08:00

in extreme forms of lostness i probably would nv be able to do anything rite i guess... but with my kind of thinking my brain does things that amazes myself... unknowingly i have answers to every problem that i face... only whether i see it or not... life's like a game of choice... that's like from i movie.... randomness... there's onli two choices.. like the head or the tail on a coin... like the math tutor says for binomial... onli succeess or failure... all i need to do is sort out wad i want now... i think i know alr...

2007-04-01T22:32:00.000+08:00

haha... i seriously have to love my sis at times... i mean how many little sisters get down into the kitchen just to bake cakes for family consumption... thank my little sis for the wonderful tasting not very sweet chocolate cake this afternoon... haha... appareantly chocolate is something that makes ppl realli realli happy... haha... at the rate she does baking i going to get fat... cannot... must resist temptation!!! or else how to go in june and look great??? haha... i think i onli thinking like that for today... haha... cause nothing better to do... gtg... byez...

out of my randomness...

2007-03-27T20:44:00.000+08:00

Okay... I have to admit I am in fact freaking stressed... Not that anyone can tell... But then i can do nothing bout it except work harder and pray for results... Irritating... Study so hard still no results... Is it nv study hard enough? That must be it lor... Haiz... Want go uni need so much pre requisites... Need results... Need money... And that equals to need scholarship... Cause practically speaking i don't have much money... So that's troublesome... Well... No other way if i want a comfortable enough life but to get a decent degree and land a decent job... So i guess i can't break down now... Or efforts would go to waste... though dunno how much effort is there that will go to waste... argh... i not making sense alr... freak... Why do i worry so much??? eeee....

2007-03-09T20:40:00.000+08:00

Happiness is not defined by the things that one have... in a material sense... Happiness from the people you have around you... The people that truely care... that know how you feel... how you think... and always try to be there... Try is an understatement... Cause you know they always are there...

It's these people that truely matter in life... These people will always try their best to be there... and bring a smile to your face... You know they try to protect you... but we don't need to say it out loud... We just need to know... Family is like that... and we love them for that... (No matter how much silly stuff they get themselves into...) But apart from all that, we can hardly find people that know as deep enough cause of ourself protection... All of us probably have protected ourselves very carefully in any one time of our lives... Some of us get over it... Some of us don't... People sometimes don't realise how little they know bout someone... Not that they don't care... most of the time its enough to just know a person... So it's not realli easy to find someone that truely cares, and know you well enough... Cause it's hard to fully put your trust in someone... That requires a lot of courage... Sometimes we have lots to say but there are just too little words that we can use... We just need to know that time will do it's job eventualli and the words will come... Even if it doesn't we just need to be there and understand that nothing is easy... Mutual understanding is the best thing that we can find in a friend... We don't need to say anything... Presence speaks for itself... We don't want to lose things in life... So we have to learn that cherishing what we have now is wad is impt... And i'm happy today... realli happy... for reasons i know and it's enough...

haha... i sound so emo... not that much ppl will make sense out of this... lol...

back again...

2007-03-08T21:46:00.000+08:00

finally after long and gruelling nights... stress has faded away and slepiness has set in... ct1 is over.. i'm not realli happy bout it... no confidence to do well in anything this time... not even in bio.... shitz... (did i just say that??) anyway... there's finalli time to sort of stop awhile and take a look at my surroundings... mayb cause i've been shutting things out of my mind just cause of the tests... well... no point bothering bout that now too... wad's done is done... wad else can i say?? sianz la..

2007-02-01T20:39:00.000+08:00

well... just got back to reality after a rather traumatic week... not all of you know why... but for those who do... thanks loads for small little things you've done for me...

don't exactly feel that emo tonight but i just thot i'd post... guess there are things in life that are worth rmbing... okay to tell the truth i've just been down memory lane trying to figure out wad have i done in my past 17 years of my life... 17 cause it isn't m birthday yet... trying to remember wad i used to like and wad i ever did... somene told me that as i grow older i realise the things that are impt in life that's why i constantly feel that the world is shrinking... right now i'm starting to realise the imptance of ppl around me... my family... my friends... i begin to think wad am i without them... constantly letting my thoughts wander... trying to imagine life without the impt ppl in my life... somehow the picture always seems so blur... then i begin to realise without them i'll feel empty... anyway my mind thinks in ways i can't comprehend by myself... gtg... chem mock spa tml...

2007-01-01T00:51:00.000+08:00

happi new year ppl!!! well... since it's the new year alr...
it's so goin to be a fast year that next year will come before most of us even know it... so many things that need to be done... so many things to be said.. lol... new year resolutions to fulfil... studies to work hard for... looking forward to my birthday in like wad 9 months and 6 days?? lol...

strictly speaking ppl... advice is that dun sms on the eve of some holiday... (like today...) cause even before 12 the msges so start lagging... quite wierd to get msges that ARE half an hour late you know... haha... aniwae my entire family is asleep alr... so i'm the only owl here...start wondering why i can't sleep?? seriously i dun think i realli have anything interesting to write bout... but still it's better then sitting around and doing nothing when you can't slp...

anyway... i think me and my sister are weird ppl... we so sympatheise with Light la... in case you ppl have no idea who that is it a character from Death Note... haha... not that we prefer the bad guys in the show... but neither do i have any idea at all on why we're like that lor... but the show quite sad la... cause both L and Light died in the end... lucky for Misa though... she lost her memory like in the comic...

and i did see the orchard lights in the end... true enuf it's a lot of orange lights on the entire stretch of the road... but ks showed me photos she took of the esplanade lights and they look even nicer... lol... it's decided that i'll go see them on tuesday... haha... treat it as celebration of last moment of true freedom before starting to mug? lol...

haha... come to think of it still haven't finish homework yet... feel bad but cannot reverse time alr...

happi new year again ppl... and hope we all achieve our resolutions shall we??

2006-12-24T11:43:00.000+08:00

ok so i dun really nid to be depressed everytime i blog... so since i'm here alr i might as well do something happi for once... lol... here goes nothing...

Ten resolutions of year 2007(in no order of priority...)

10: Improving my grades by tenfold... lol... that's probably equivalent to my total scorable marks multiplied by ummm....i dunno... Not that my math is anithing to be proud of... yes i praying that i'll score straight aces everywhere all year round but seriously... i'll need tonnes of help to get an a for econs... probably lots of luck too... haha...

9: spend a lot of time with my family... i guess i should have done that this year but the hectic-ness of jc life has simehow prevented me from doing so... not that i'm complaining or anything but i just think that all the time i spend out of the house is much more than that of wad i spend at home... i think mums just like their children being at home all the time so i'll have to keep her happi somehow...

8: umm... my my... resolutions are hard to make... well... money saving is quite an impt thing next year... with all the spending this year i haven't realli saved much... not that i want to spend much though... money somehow doesn't realli stay put for long... plus i guess i'll have to save some for SDD by the end of next year too... guess it's every girls dream to look their best at their prom... haha...

7: ah... now there's something that i realli nid to do... take my sister in hand... not tat i can do much though but still its worth a try..

6: although i think this isn't exactly advisable i just have to say that i'm going to continue listening bout things happening around me and not let much of wad i think out to the world... haha... dun scold me...

i realli dun get how ppl can make this kind of lists... cause seriously i dun think i've got that much things that i have to resolve to do...

5: like i said last night i nid to cheer for someone this upcoming year... haha...

4: take up an internship somewhere to experience wad jobs are like in the real world... since i've got lab experience i think i'll try something new... hmm... maybe as a magazine intern?? lol...

3: of course instead of taking up an internship after my 'a's i could probably take up a course or two... design?? dance?? yoga?? lol... i nid opinions...

2: go on a diet... yes that should be it... though i think the more stressed i get the more food my mum put in front of me... not exactly a good thing if i'm actualli going on diet is it??? and i am starting to see that i'm going to get realli and extremely stress next year... lol... but still dieting is impt!!!!

1: well this is the last on my list.. and i still nid to think wad it is... goodness me... i know... i need to count all my blessings... nope... i'm no christian but i still believe that wadever religion that ppl believe in and whoever they pray to we must all still be grateful that we're better off than others in one way or another... i'll have to thank wadever's there tat's watching over me... lol...

so this is it i guess... thanks ppl for hanging in there with me... lol... not that i believe that there are ppl that will actually come here... haha... byez.....

2006-12-23T21:02:00.000+08:00

I feel forgotten...

It feels all so empty...

Everything around me...

Guess everyone has their bad days...

Although i'll always wish that mine wouldn't come...

Trust myself to say all this...

Everyone sounds so depressed... okay... maybe it's just me... After reading tang's blog i think i feel so depressed too... and i think that isn't tang's original idea when she posted on her blog... but still it sounded depressing... and it's supposed to be christmas in 2 days? don't feel the mood... is it that as one grows older holidays like new year and everything mean lesser and lesser?? cause i could remember how much i loved holidays when i was young... maybe age realli does things to ppl without them realising it... i'm saying all this at ease... cause i know no one reads my blog... not unless they wanna feel even more depressed than they originally were... on with the story... umm... well... somehow i've kept wanting to spend more time with me family all hol but i've never got to do it... plus i've increasingly been falling sick too... sian la... well there's always x mas to spend time with the family i guess...

resolution of the week?? Go orchard and look at the christmas lightings... lol

2006-11-12T10:25:00.001+08:00

sometimes i think life plays around with me... sometimes i think wadeva's up there just wants to fool around with my life... it's like what the heck... right now it's doing what i think i does... yes... it's fooling with my life... somehow i just hate myself for being so useless right now... for shouting it out loud I HATE MYSELF! everything that has happened must be my fault! all i want is my sister to have a nice birthday nothing more... it's not that i want a palace in the sky or something... everything's that simple but i can't do anithing to accomplish it... im the worst sister ever la... face the facts... we have to eat birthday dinner today because of me... cause i have to be in the lab tml and i'll have to leave early if you did it tml....but we can't have it today cause there's a show on tv that my sister watches... we are stuck having some 3.30 lunch-dinner that my dad won't get to eat if we go on with it... my sister doesn't want to have the dinner without dad as she says it different... and yes i agree it is different if not everybody is around for dinner... my dad's stubborn bout his working time can't even talk sense into him... now my sister's unhappy my mother's angry my father's freaking working and i'm stuck trying to find a solution which i bloody can't get... i hate myself... i can't do a single thing rite... not one.... not even one.... i dun wanna bother best friend there with this now as he's having op tml so i'm lost now... freak... how much tissues have i used???

2006-11-02T20:51:00.000+08:00

Sometimes i start thinking that maybe having that masked me around is better than showing the vulnerable me... It prevents unwanted trouble, hurt apprehensiveness... At least the masked me is always happy... And never sad, angry, or anything negative... That's probably the strong front that people see most of the time... Well... I never liked the fact of letting my guard down anyway... Given the way all the thing always seem to work out in my life... And to think the 16pf test actually say that I'm optimistic... I feel almost bad about forever telling people to look on the bright side of life... Sorry... But it's true... Now to think of it I almost feel as if I'm lying or something... I don't normally see the bad stuffs in life... But i know... I'm just ignoring it... negative facts probably follow me around and lurk in the darkness of my shadow... I just choose not to see it... Sometimes i'd like to believe... I want to believe... And although I say it out loud that I do believe... Somewhere in my heart i doubt what I believe in... I just wanna close the door to how I feel... But everytime I do so a certain source of darkness sets in... A kind of darkness that I myself despise... The kind that makes reliance on someone feel so warm... Probably darkness is cold... So I'll start closing the door to my emotions again... Leaving just the little gap to let in that little warmth in to keep me from becoming stone...

---NoT LeTt|nG mYsElF OuT...

2006-10-28T22:33:00.000+08:00

i am SO not gonna to comment on my sibling on my blog... the fact that she suddenly walks into the room and sit down next to me while i'm at the com... the fact that the next min she is the one at the com and not me... haha... aniwae i'm not going to comment as i'm currently veerrryyyy comfortably housed on my bed typing my blog on the laptop... lol... apparently she doesn't exactly think it's rather wrong to just (without an "excuse moi") make me go do something else... AS USUAL... ah... nvm... i give up...

--surrendered
--*frantic waving of white flag...*

2006-10-27T22:03:00.000+08:00

okay... i'm irritable tonight... not that i have any idea why though... my fuse is on the short side too... i'm bout to blow up if someone does anything to start a fire around here... maybe i'm just moody... who noes... nobody really noes anybody these days isn't it??

kkz... so maybe the real reason for my particular irritable-ness is probably due to he fact that ppl just love to talk a lot when you're apparently concentrating somewhere else... yes yes... i'm reading yet another book... but so... apparently i'm in no mood to talk or even make noise... it's like written all over my face... that "get-out-of-my-way" sign.. not that ppl will get it... i don't exactly like talking when i'm reading... msging maybe but never talkin more than i usually do... it gets me irriatated when ppl don't get it though... and true enuf there are ppl that dont... haiz... wad can i do???

i admit it... i'm just anti-social... bleh...

2006-10-19T18:32:00.000+08:00

well here i am again... i guess... just wanted to blog again... well my blogging trend quite irregular... wad can i say... i only do wad i like... which i do believe is wad i just did this afternoon between the time i got let off from my lessons and the science research h3 meeting... lol... but i think whatever i did was rather weird... haha... i call it spending quality time with myself... now you see why i think its weird??? well due to that 2 hours or so of "break" i decided to just do wad i wanted just for today... lol... i dun do this often anyway... according to that 16pf report (haha... some personality test thing the school made us take), i prefer to do things the down-to-earth way... AND not get thrown off track and into ideal fantasies... haha... sounds funni already... but there's really got to be a limit to all that... so yes i did wad i did... and i'm pretty pleased with myself... cheers to myself... haha...

talking so much i realised that i haven't even gone into wad i did do this afternoon... sorri for beating bout the bush ppl... haha... i actually went to parkway alone la.. did some shopping to satisfy my craving to spend some money... though i didn't have much to spend anyway... i'm like down to my last dollar already... then it hit me when i wanted to spend more money that i should have just paid the $15 class fund and have my ez link topped up tomorrow after i had asked my dad for pocket money... that would give me more spending allowance wouldn't it?? but on second thoughts... it's lucky that i only had ten bucks left... or i'd burn my week's allowance... haha... so i got a wonderful motiff printed wrapping paper from Prints... although according to my sister the shop is known as irints... haha... i don't care cause it's been known by me as print from the beginning... lol... things in there don't come cheap though.. so really nice way to waste money away... haiz... well wad done is done though... lol... won't regret what i've done... never done and never will... lol... haha... think i'm probably going to start some DIY project to amuse myself soon... haha... got some nice idea while i was at Prints... haha... then i went to mph planning to find some book to buy... conveniently forgetting that i had now less then 6 bucks in my pocket... by the time i realised i was waiting at the cafe for a cup of espresso alr... see why i'm down to my last dollar?? so i sat in the cafe reading the book that wei xin lent me today... haha... so i seriously spent my afternoon communing with the shopping mall... haha... sad stuff to be doing... lol... but i do love the occassional time i spend with me myself and i... well time to go...

---DrEaMs...HaPp|nEsS...bLeSs|nGs...LuCk...LoVe...

2006-10-15T19:31:00.000+08:00

apparently, i won't tell you what my childish little desire is... but i'll let you in on one of my wishes...

2006-10-15T18:49:00.000+08:00

I guess I really have nothing to do rite now... see... who after exams will got nothing to do one?? haha... so here i am for the whole day in front of the com watching anime... haha... i think listen too much of jap will start to out of the blue sprout jap out of no where one... lol... watashiwa Shayne des.... i think whatever i heard just now sounded like that... haha... instead of just saying "what?" i think i've gone "nan des ka?" like the tenth time already... lol... but i think i know anything chim-er alr... well... watchin anime really makes ppl think bout stuff... then for the think too much kind of ppl like moi, naturally i start the tinking too much crap again... lol... so here goes nothing...

i think everybody has a secret childish desire even if they don't really say it...
even if ppl don't really sense it...
even if it's rather meaningless...
even if it doesn't potray their character...
even if it would never seem like them to have such thoughts...

but...

even if nobody says so, we all know deep in our hearts...

... there's always...

... that little...

...child-like glow...

...deep in our hearts...

i guess i've buried my childish little glow a very long time ago...

but... this little hope...

my little hope...

...is what brings a smile to my face before i fall into dreamless sleep....

...is what wakes me up everyday...

...is probably what holds my life in place...

---DrEaMs...HaPp|nEsS...bLeSs|nGs...LuCk...LoVe...

it's another one of those nights

2006-07-18T22:04:00.000+08:00

DISCLAIMER: I'm trying to be serious here... okay seems like it's not working... it's another one of those mood swing nights where i've got to talk to someone but i dun feel like bothering anyone at all... esp since the person i'm forever bothering is busy... so this is going to be a post which is invisible to anyone but me... so ppl... ignore me for now...

haha... i almost feel better now... ppl... dun try to read me... it'll kill a more than necessary number of brain cells...
--whatever

this is so crap....

2006-07-01T22:39:00.000+08:00

i think my mid years are like so pretty screwed... you'd imagine the paper to be somewhat managable instead of half undo-able... but nope... it's freakin'ly-omg... that's how bad it is... i wonder how there'd be people the scrap thru and get the BCDD citeria to do H3... or are there such ppl?? or is it just me thinking this way? i keep thinking like this and i'll probaly get a nervous breakdown before i even get back the papers on tuesday... and about the half undo-able paper... yes it's math... i can't even bring myself to talk about the paper to anybody any more... that's how bad it is.... to tell the truth facing the fact about failing a paper is unthinkable to me... cause i haven't fail in major exams like this before... think bout doin research h3??? i can't even begin to think not doing it... but i can't even get that BCDD anymore wad... like wad can i do rite??? it's so bloody frustrating that i can't take it anymore... i feel like an idiot...

--argh!!!

2006-03-29T17:30:00.000+08:00

.... my uncle's back in town... haha... so happy... my cousin liked cried when she heard his voice just now... emotional girl... haha... then make me wanna cry with her over the phone... oh ya... if you dun get it.. i go to the same sch as her so we practically see each other everyday... lol... so i sort of saw her after sch and asked whether her father was back not.... so we called him and say was agitated when she heard his voice... but i get how she feels... since she almost or 3 months never see uncle alr... well glad he's back.... forgot the other reason i was blogging for alr...

2006-03-28T21:19:00.000+08:00

so.... i'm here again... this time i'm writing a late post... cause i wanted to do so yesterday... but my freaking room light just wouldn't come on... or else it just keeps flickering.... the entire of yesterday seemed wrong la... like i got up from the wrong side of the bed in the morning... but hold on.... ironically i've only got one side of the bed to get off from.... argh.... so i woke up with a horribly bad feeling bout the entire day... goodness me... but that isn't exactly a good sign now is it? true enough... bad headache struck... and as usual i kept it hushed down in me not telling anyone... haha... sounds just like me... wait again... it IS me.... so i think i just flunked my chem test... wad the... it's totally bad... i think i went to math lec after that with a irritatingly black face... cause my best pal told me he could see i wasn't in a good mood after that in the evening.... argh... good thing is i don't think my class ppl noticed... best partof yesterday? cheerleading prac... although we didn't exactly do much but still i look forward to more of it.... lol...okay... so yesterday felt wrong... i even craved for jalan kayu roti prata... weird sort of urge... i have never craved for prata for dinner la... i wished someone could have bought some for me... lol... my mum say i crazy or something.... lol... well time to sign off... haha...

---if you ppl haf realised, i'm back to the normal happy me again....

2006-03-25T16:53:00.000+08:00

finally got time to blog.... lol... i'm lyk letting my blog go to waste if i don't do so.. so here i am back in front of the com...typing... erh.... well spent an unfruitful morning at ntu's school of biological sciences... for wad? understanding the h3 cirriculum... okay... i dun think i spelt tat correctly but then heck la... haha... unfruitful is cause i spent the morning there but i understood lyk less than half of it... not that the speakers there dun spak understandable english but they dun exactly speak in terms that make us understand what they're lyk going to do... all they did was show us their facilities and equipment... explaining in yet again un-understandable langauge... by a quarter or half the tour we(me, jasmine, jonathan,koh shing) were lyk looking forward to the reception already... lol...

hehe... so when it was time for the refreshments it's so obvious wad we did.... haha....yes you said it! we rushed for the food... lol... high class food sia... spagahetti, crossiant,dessert... goodness... the food totally rock! haha... met lao da there... haha...that's another good thing bout the day... so long nv see him alr... cause he b'dae time die oso dun wanna walk out of the house let me treat him for lunch... bleh... lao da... my b'dae i dun care wad you do but you must come out and treat me alr... hehe... bleh.... kkz... go do homework alr...

---lao da... dun grow taller alr and stop hittng my head :PpPpPpP

2006-03-22T17:34:00.000+08:00

sianz... stuck here doing my homework... cause i resoluted to start mugging.... yeah yeah i know it'slike just the sec term of school.... but ya.... seems like i've slacked off for awhile too long.... so i'm here reading my gp passage trying to figure out wad answer i should write down... then it dawns upon me that the passage actualli makes sense... as in not tat my eng tat bad till i can't understandwad i'm reading.... but it actually makes sense in life.... and i finally and randomly remember that i was like that when i was young... "mummy... why this... daddy.. why tat..." lol... must haf been a hell lot irritating sia... haha... i think i still am... onli in a different way... cause i hardly ask why any more... i dun exactly like to pry into other ppl's world.. unless i'm close ter you that is... haha... so if ppl dun wanna let me know bout things, i just stop after asking it once... back to the topic... haha... so why exactly dun the grown ups like to answer our childhood queries and yet they like to pry into things we dun exactly want them to care too much about? there are things tat asking too much will lead to ppl getting frustrated... yes... just like the why questions we all ask when we were young (whether we remember it or not)... so there are alwaes time tat grown ups dunno how to back off... and hence... we all know the ending rite? well who doesn't.... aha... maybe i sholud get back to my work now....

----thinking too much

It's been a year??? lol... i'm back...

2006-03-13T21:43:00.000+08:00

Haha... Haven't written for a year alr...

well... lots of things haf changed in my life.... yes yes... now i sound like the world's revolving round me.... lol... but i dun realli care... cause i really miss old times lots.... and when i say lots i mean LOTS.... haha... if i were to start at it i wouldn't even know where to begin... lol... being in jc now, making new friends, keeping the old ones and "re-knowing" those i really thought i knew is tough... i think i'm getting back to the old me... remember the masked face me? argh... but then again who actually knows i'll get angry at others anyway...

if you do means either:
1. i'm not doing a good job, or
2. you think you know wad i realli feel... (see the way that word "think" appears?), or
3. the obvious one i really am angry or pissed

but the problem bout that "multiple-choice" question is that 3 can never exist... cause no one not even... i'm not saying who has seen me flare up to a 100% before... sounds scary alr... haha... well the introductory page of this blog isn't exactly for show ya know...

so now where was i? hmm... ah... missing old times... who can say they donn't miss 4J? i know i'm starting to... okay.... maybe it's just me... see i dun care again... then i miss the weekend study grp... haha... put up with me... gals tend to get a little ya know.... sensitive... hmm... cause one thing was the hardcore studyin then next thing ya know it's prom alr... lol... talk boout time there's only one word to say, "sneaky".... then swoosh...new school new life new friends... i not saying it isn't good... but then again... i'm the type that think alot.... too much for my own good someone said.... hehe... well... time to sign off... yawnz...
(that's my new class... not really updated though.. transfers..)

sick sick sick... oh man...

2005-03-14T23:44:00.000+08:00

oh man... everybody in the family falling sick... first is my sister got sore throat... then fever... the now she coughing non-stop... tell her cough out everything for once better then she every few secs cough one time she don't believe.. then tell her later she cough too much the burst the aveoli partition wall... thus, lowering the surface area to volume ratio... equals to slower absorption of air in the lungs... bio crap lorz... take and scare her one... but haish.. she still don't take me seriously... then wad can i do right?

then my mum oso sick... fever oso... now i sick i oso don't dare tell the liaoz...pathetic lorz... one sick fool taking care of another 2 patients... equals to have to wash the dishes lorz... wa piang... washing dishes is daily chores la... but then i never touch washing detergent unless got special occasion... that i don't say when.. you curious then next time you see me remember to ask... now the hands surely not dry one la... haish... but wad to do... who ask i fall sick later then the other 2... so have to do hard labour lorz... sian...

see tomorrow they feeling better not... or else i maybe hve to skip section outing... argh... why me again??? sian... TOTALLY... oh man... if i do... sorry lorz everybody... at least the guys going tomorrow got one less shopping bag to carry?? ^.^"

i knew it...

2005-03-12T19:58:00.000+08:00

K... Dan Brown rox sia... Just finished Angel and Demons... already finished The Da Vinci Code.... Wanted to go buy the other 2 books today one... but sigh the bookshop is out of the way...

haish.... i knew it lorz... cannot bring that type of result slip home give mi mum see one lorz... no matter it's the teacher's fault for typing the wrong marks fer the entire class... siao la... the level average for chem is double of my class average la... wad the... then my mum see liaoz say i anyhow cook up a story give her to hide the fact that i fail la... wad the... ya la... where got don't wanna cry lorz... sian... teacher's fault blame on me.... cummon la... how long has she knew me? rather don't believe me... think everything she sees is real.. that my world revolves around her like the earth goes round the sun in this universe.... wa lao... i already know cannot give her see liaoz lorz... take time alreadi tell mrs tan say my mum confirm won't sign unless print the correct one give her le lorz... then she say juz sign first... wad did i tell her? haiz... wadeva lorz... go back time then tell her my mum just won't sign... wad can she do with me?

If practice makes perfect...

2005-02-26T20:38:00.000+08:00

... Sigh ...

... Yes ...

... It's another one of those horrible nites of my life ...

... again...

... The day wasn't bad actually... nope... i don't think it's bcause of anything that happened today that i'm feeling moody... the exchange didn't turn out to be that bad actualli... we didn't ma lu ourselves... so if we continue our pract seriously we might do well this year and make up for the loss...

... if wad they say bout practice making perfect that is....

... life's contradicting... take for example... practice make perfect... then... nobody's perfect... see? so then wy's practice? nono... don't get me wrong... this is just an example... purely... Contradiction... and behind all that.. lies... (the cursor's blinking in front of me... waiting for my next sentence... but my hands don't seem to want to move... though i'm making it...) i'm just finding fault again... that's why probably i'm moody again... tonight is about this unspecial unloving void life... everything feels empty tonight... yes... sigh... it's so difficult growin up... that i'd rather remain as a one year old... but i'm 15 years too late fer that... i don't want to think bout anything and everything... yet the more i don't wanna feel whatever's happening in my life the more i feel it... and the harder reality hits me.... sigh... another of life's contradiction... sigh....

...i wanna hit myself numb... to all and everything... but nothing seem to obey and go my way... my life... my destiny but wad is it truely??? ...

Illogical Logic

2005-02-22T20:45:00.000+08:00

K... now it's time to kb scientists... wad's the problem with them... (side note: i think i keep finding fault in things this few times...)

... welll... to begin.. they are too tied down to the mindset of logic... everything happens for a reason... thus there has to be logic and all this kindaf stuff... not everything has logic in them... spirits for eg... the ppl don't invent the word fer nothing you know... but then scientist come along and say that they don't exist.. because there isn't proof... they probably think that to believe in supernaturals is to go against the law of logic... cause the talks bout spirits are just illogical.... what they don't know is that they are just a bunch of inflexible blockheads who are too tied down to earth by gravity...(they believe that as dumb newton found gravity.... ohhh.... that's sad...) they just try too hard to not believe in illogic but to not believe in the first place is due to the fact that the alreadi believe the "myth" in the first place...

Definition of Blockhead aka cha tao : Ppl who believe too much in logic, stubbornly refuse to be flexible and are hopelessly illogical themselves....

.... Are you one of them? ... ??? ...

Black & white... Grey?

2005-02-17T20:53:00.000+08:00

actually... wad exactly is it bout life? when you first started out...wad were you good at? well i don't know... who will remember... in our lives it probably used to be black and white... it's only when you've grown up older... then you'll realise that there is or probably there's always been another colour called grey...

argh well...

then wad is it bout optimists and pessimists? huh? how can someone be so sure that here will be sunshine after the rain? how can someone just smile and say that everything's all right yet it isn't always wad it turns out to be? How can there be so many questions when answers are so hard to find? who is able to cherish wad they have now before losing it?

there are so many questions yet so little time... endless hope yet too little faith in a miracle...

so i ask again... what is it about life?

Some free time... finally...

2005-02-16T20:43:00.000+08:00

Well, been pretty busy and uptight this few times... not that there isn't a reasn not to be... but ya... uptight that's the word... feeling super ap... cause my sister having common test... she like don't care one la... but like i wanna bother bout her right... she having higher chinese and chinese common tomorrow... stress sia...

wad i don't get is she stress why i must stress together with her ahz? not like i haven't got enuff things on my back...

i'm not suppoesed to be here doing tis now... but arggghhhhh!!! heck... don't care liaoz... blog halfway where got don't finish one... ya ya.. now where was i? hmm... oh...

i mean i got time to relax after 2 days of piah-ing for 2 bloodified tests obviously wanna sit back relax la.... then wad... have o teach her maths... k i'm writing all this in her face now... she give me attitude.... her test she ask me WAD TO DO lehz... piang... surely not smiling happily at her one... then mummy oso... ask me do wad red rewards thingy... online exchange points for voucher then oso dunno wad is wait awhile wor... then i frustrated liaoz lorz... wad da... then the stupid irritated tone come out liaoz then she scold me again... hai... dunno why i can put up with it everytime la... like everything oso my fault like that... ren le lorz... she big wad... that's why i'm ap this few times ma... but then got no where to turn to and fa xie... that's why i'm here... a little late la... cause yesterday ren till now wad... sad sia...

better go liaoz... later mum come in then i die-ed...

It's the second day

2005-02-10T13:00:00.000+08:00

It's just the second day of the Chinese New Year and here i am stuck in front of the com... expecting visitors later in the afternoon... haha... anyway... yesterday very late then come home... sian... went to my tang's house in the afternoon after visiting my relatives... lost contact one lost contact... nv go their houses lorz... this year go so little ppl's house... not complaining though... do so little visiting the feet oso hurt... haha... anyway go my cousin's house spend the afternoon there... play majong till sian liaoz... then rox ask us watch naruto... k la... lyk tat now make me stuck watching liaoz lorz... haiz... so have to go borrow/download lorz... bleah... see first time then mae me cry liaoz...(cause the chouji died...) eee.... haha.... then when all the around the same age cousins reach liaoz (got umm... mi...my sis... rox... cheryl... biao jie... qq... sq... daryl and daniel...) ... open 2 deck of tai-di... the adults oso start... lol... a bunchof gamblers.... chinese families all lyk that one la.... haha... anyway.. gtg...

Happy Chinese New Year

2005-02-08T23:50:00.000+08:00

...it's ten minutes to CNY...
...and i can't get to sleep no matter how many twists and turns in bed...
...so i give up...
...since so long nv blog liaoz come and have a look...
...and ya... duh update....

i mean ain't i doing that alreadi? haha... this morning go school fo CNY celebrations...ya... wore home clothes... long sleeve maroon drop shoulder top with a white flare skirt... early morning reach school go play cards and then our class super pro-ed la... we didn't know need to go parade square to assemble and take attendence... corner class dunn a single thing lorz... smiling at ourselves... when someone comes back from the tooilet and tell us the entire level in empty... surely not almost the whole clss together late one... nvm... never get scolding though... CNY ma... haha...

after the celebrations supposedly (happy chinese new year!!!! the clock struck 12... dingdong...) have section outing go bowling at east coast park there one... but then... sian... in the end organiser pang seh us... and pathetically left me, wt and mu... wad the... nvm... haha.... so go band room see go ppl wanna go or not lorz... in the end go with jingyi, karen, isabel, huimin and little brother lorz... then in the end we still got go bowling la.... but then onli got me wt steffi and later jj... i think i so extra...

oh ya... forgot to mention... we went to pizza hut (the one next to siglap shopping there one...)... the waiter dunno wad's gotten into him say give us discount then still giv us free plate of drumlets.... wow... but den we dunno how oso so we wrote him a thank u card on an envelope and gave it to him lorz... lol... wt bring one whole stack of envelopes dunno for wad one... hah....

anyway dunno why after bowling suddenly mood swing... felt so empty lyk that... totally dragged myself home in that mood lorz... i know it's my own prob la... haha... i know myself... it's lyk... dunno la... ap jiu shi le la... how come feel so unhappy all of the sudden? sian... always happy time will lyk that one spoil my own day...

feel lyk sleeping whole body already too tired to do anything liaoz... but then there's nothing i can do to shut off that dumb irritating part of the brain that doesn't want me to get to sleep... uhu... anyone up there... can anyone hear me... i wanna scream out loud but there comes all the restrictions in life... so late at night liaoz and yet you wanna disturb all your neighbours... and all that kinda stuff... and so life's lyk that? i don't believe it... well but isn't it the truth i'm seeing, hearing, feeling and breathing... wad is all this mess in life? i nv can stand messes.... but life seems lyk a complicated web which entangles and makes a mess out of everything... i seems lyk it is going to go on forever.... ar well... there's nothing i can do now can i? i'm wad you call resigned to my fate though i still control my destiny.

So Long

2005-01-15T17:52:00.000+08:00

It's been so long since i've last blogged... and i remember i wasn't in the best of moods... haha... that's pathetic though... k nvm... but then now there's another problematic thing... i've got chinese compo to FINISH but i don't know how to START... ommg... i think i'm dead meat... sigh... got no mood to laugh no more...

wad am i doing with my life? there seems that there are endless things that i haven't done... yet some i haven't have half the heart to do... haven't figured out where my life is heading but i do hope i find out soon enough though... give myself a time limit? k... till the end of the term... i think lessons are getting stressful... that bio teacher give test every time she finish one chapter... argh... so have to listen to her teach lor.... pay attention ma...

Work and more work

2005-01-08T16:56:00.000+08:00

...ya ya...
...a holiday's come and gone...
...so has a year bloomed and faded away...
...nothing seems to be going my way...
...but i would be explict bout it...
...new year's here but nothing seem new about it...
...i should be happy but i'm not...
...i don't know wad i should be doing now...

school's just started again... as usual... farni.. but we've got 2 timetables... one for the odd week and another for the even... if you tell ppl that we've only got six lessons a day they say we lucky... but they don't know that 1 lesson is an hour... by the 3rd period hungry lyk siao liaoz... but then still got to finsh it then can go recess... haha... after school go band room half an hour or so then go home... wa lao... that concludes one day... wah... surely so exciting one...

nowadays need to do alot of work then i satisfied one... but no one knows why... ppl share your joy and the saying says fears and sadness too... but only me... i hardly tell anyone bout wad i'm unhappy bout... i only share joy and lend others a listening ear... i say i don't wanna open up... but i won't throw my burden at other ppl and add to their load... but got exception one lorz...

... wonder why i'm writing all this...
... don't wanna feel anymore...
... can't stand all the probs i have...
... can't breathe fresh air liaoz...
... why can't i just slp everything away...

Last few days of hols....

2004-12-30T21:14:00.000+08:00

...time flies...
...now it's gone with the wind...

El Ministrel is over alreadi... sorry never update till now... busy ma... I think we played quite well though there is obvious room for improvement... esp on iris.... surprisingly... santa christmas symphony didn't really sound bad (see we saw the replay of he concert at the chalet)... i know not many ppl realli understood iris... but still thre are few.... eee.... got alot of flowers that day... hha... my mummy bought carnations... (i wonder why it isn't roses???)... i take all of the flowers go make dry liaoz... but dunno got use correct method notz... haha... nvm...

just got back from band chalet today... did a few games of bowling while i was there... now leg muscles aching.... argh... but played for the fun of it so i'm not complaining... well the fist day of chalet was pretty fun... we play city slickers (dunno got spell wrongly notz...). the band was supposed to meet at pasir ris mrt at 8.30am... but umm.... as can be expected go ppl late... got others never come... wow...

anyway the station masters don't need to meet as we need to be at our stations by 9.45am... so my station is at ikea (queenstown) then ly thought need alot of time to reach... who knows me and andrew plus special guest star j lo meet at 8.30 reach the mrt nearest ikea onli 9 nia... so we eat at the nearby coffeshop till bout 10 then take bus here go make our task... i think our station make them stay the longest one lorz for all the groups... hha... they dn't lyk us liao.... so sad... i think we quite bias la... human ma... but don't say too much... wait till wanna strict then ppl jiu bu shuang liaoz lorz...nvm... but still vv happy... tell u we corrupted one... jj's group bribe us with meatballs... haha... but i finish with the last group liaoz nv go back chalet...

my dd came ikea to pick me go trader's hotel... cause my nz sort of god grandparents came to singapore to see us... we hd dinner then vv late then go home... the next day go airport send them off.... then i go chalet stay over... hha... reach chalet then go play cards... and 2 rounds of bowling.... with poline and yh... haha....by the time come bac can eat liaoz lorz... man 8i tell you the stingray was great... amazingly hot some more.... hha... then we had games (play wacko)... wt so clumsy fall down..the cut look not vv deep la but then deeper then the one he got later on when cycling... duuno how he does it... haha.... kor came back after mus art concert looking quite happy and he joined us to play wacko... haha... giv my biaoz sabo... korz standing infront of me she still call my name... bo bian lorz... haha... very short time caught someone else off guard liaozzz.... haha... the neighbours gave us food.. so nice to eat esp the pork chop... we later watch concert replay and a horror thriller called "the wisher"... after that hen slp lorz... lucky can find place to fall asleep... alot of ppl just sleep on the floor... w/o banket lorz some.... ke lian...

gtg liaoz.... wanna sleep... *yawns*.... nniittteeeezzzzz......

Merry Christmas... hohoho....

2004-12-25T21:42:00.000+08:00

Oooooo.... wish you all out there merry christmas and a happy new year... Esp... better don't later i leave out ppl then no good liaoz.... haha.... lao jie... your card i recieve liaoz.... i oso dunno wad you icecream mean.... but you know i vv guai one.... haha...

tomorrow El Ministrel VI already...
... so excited...
... a bit scared...
... pretty nervous...
... a little anxious...
... quite intimidated at the thought of tomorrow...
... don't want the nite to end...
... cannot wait for tomorrow to come...
... ensured ( a dozen and hundreds of times) my family's coming...
... argh ....

eee.... got curfew tonight.... my mum say wad must slp early and all those kind of things.... haha... kk.... i'm offffff..... bbbbbbbbbbyyyyyyyyyyyeee...

... ... ... ??? ??? ??? ... ... ...

2004-12-20T21:17:00.000+08:00

ooo... so tired... think i sleeping early today... haha....

today was a long day... nonono... it was a long day today... haha.. kkz... i think i crapping... wadeva...

went to ngee ann sec today to sit in with them for their exchange with dunern( O_o'' ... dunno how to spell) had sectionals first then combine... we did singapore rhapsody... wa sian... the dunern gal analyse the music liaoz lorz.. but the christie oso not bad lorz... dunno is she actully alreadi know wad she wanna say or she wanna say time then anyhow say come out... if it's anyhow one.. then i seriously take my hat off her... so pro-ed... haha...

we left before the prac actually ended... cause we have to rush back school for our own prac... lunch break w until 2 but we were back in school half an hour early... we took taxi ma... but i think quite worth la... 4 ppl take one reach school each pay $1 nia...

haha.... eee... i wanna go watch national treasure....

wad's happening?

2004-12-19T01:15:00.000+08:00

*sigh*

*sigh*

i just got home bout an hour ago... finished talking to steffi on the phone...

went to watch vjc concert.... kor lyk so heng got 2 bouquet of flowers... haha...

after concert actualli wanna go eat one... then they decide go 85 and eat... steffi say too far then dun wanna go... then by the time drag here drag there half of them left on their own... go home one go home... go eat one go eat.... left me, ginny, wei theng, jun jie, andrew, hong wei... i forgot left hu liaoz... then all veri pissed lyk that... dunno wad to do either... no mood liaoz... then in the end i oso dun wan go eat.. ask my dad pick me home... sian... how come become lyk that... enlighten me la... someone?

wa lao... sorry i shouldn't curse... can't help it la... wadeva... go sleep liaoz... tomorrow then will be fine liaoz... though tonight i dun wan it to end too fast... lyk that then can dun think too much bout things...

Home....

2004-12-17T22:32:00.000+08:00

just got home from orchard.... went to see my cousin perform and wanted to watch sas concert at the paragon there one... *sighs*... never got to watch lorz... know wad.. wasted trip... we give the place shua la... here got one stage there got another... walk and find till wanna die liaoz lorz... sian... and in the end... *sighs again*

i think i'm going to sleep realli soon... can't stand it lorz... wei theng's back today... though he's still sick... so poor thing... think he dying to play captain's ball just now during drills la... haha...

k... i going to sleep liaoz.... bye... haha... tomorrow still got vjc concert... then kor playing... so have to buy flower for him... hope he doesn't feel too sad... haha...

K... I know... I just blogged

2004-12-16T22:05:00.001+08:00

*sigh*...

*sigh*...

And more sighs....

seriously i don' know wad i'm doing... abit.. is probably bcause i can't sleep before 10.30 nowadays.... alot is because i have no direction in life rite now... or i can't see it.... ritez... sometimes i wonder why i'm going one way or another... sometimes i just wanna stop wadeva i'm doing... most of the time i can't though.... i don't know anything rite this moment... everything that seemed important suddenly doesn't seem so anymore... but i'm not talking about those...

lonely.

lonesome.

lost.

why am i doing this?

??

i don't see the value of doing all this.... but i still do.. i think i very tired... yet so awake... (sound familiar ritez?... maybe not...) no one to talk to... i think i not very extrovert... i'm introvert by nature one.... it's only that if you don't mix around ritez ppl think you cold.... not that i don't like crowds la... but my mood siao siao one... when i really want ppl to talk to normally there isn't anyone around... then feel so empty lyk that... though most of the time i with ppl i don't feel that i wanna be alone... sometimes i can't wait for night to come... alone... i smile... i laugh about... but face ma... lyk a mask lyk that only that it's in your very skin... hypocritical.... i think i very long never write like that already... feeling surpisingly antisocial tonight... after a quite... sort of... sociable day... couldn't wait for the nite to come... yet can't wait for this long nite to end... can't make the morning to come... and still... i'm here... without company...

Can't make the day pass,
Can't tear down the dreadful mask,
Can't just be me,
The one i yearn to see.

Can't wait for the night to come,
Can't wait to see the stars shine in the sapphire sky,
Can't find light in the sky,
Wishing for the morning to come.

Forget it... i don't know why i bother staying online.... sigh... wadeva... i'll be fine tomorrow... cause it's another nite.

Hmm.... money...

2004-12-16T18:20:00.000+08:00

money probs.. ya... esp when that phone bill of mine came last month... haha... i started hols with $80 ad i'm left with $30... to pass christmas without buying any presents... hope daddy can sponsor me some money la... obviously... stupid singtel.. change their billing method also don't inform ppl... haiz... now i know why so many ppl all go work this hols... haha... speaking of $$... wen jia asked how much money i have in my bank acc... seriously speaking after much thought... i have no bloody idea... my bank book i don't keep myself one.. my mum don't let... i'm oblivious of how much is in there... but making a guess... it can't be very little... at least i think so... i think grandpa left some money for me and my sister to go U... haha.... going to eat dinner soon... so i think i stop first... i think sectionals today the progress not very... or not fast enough la... sigh....

Argh....

2004-12-15T22:15:00.000+08:00

Haiz... damn tired sia... today we play for very long... till mi teeth oso ache... haha... kor's frien come teach us things during sectionals... i think he quite shocked to see that our section got so many girls... esp today no guys come... jun han on hols just come back a few hours ago... wei theng still sick i think... then i don't know where benedict went... haha... we go long john eat lunch today... but come back still not late... the person serving got prob lorz.... we order liaoz then she say must wait... then stephanie go same counter as me and christie order the same thing she come back with food first.... haha... silly counter girl... haha... i think i going to sleep realli soon... tomorrow still got sectionals.. plus my sister waiting to use the com... i think... wonder who will come tomorrow.. i know jh won't be coming... haha... next week concert liaoz... really excited yet scared... wad if... we don't do well? ... if the seats aren' even half full? oh well... i think no point worry that much now... never mind la... oh ya... hope wei theng gets well soon... haha...

It's been so long... but still i haven't forgot

2004-12-14T21:30:00.000+08:00

It's been so long... so long since i last blogged... but still yeah... i'm back... been pretty busy lately...(oops... that was my sis...) with the upcoming band concert... christmas is coming along... wow... the last time i remember actually buying presents was... argh... valentines... owww.... time flies i tell you... and now with a hole in my pocket... it's christmas yet AGAIN... not complaining still...

oh.... i'm down with flu... haha... see how flu virus spread notz? haha... though i don't know why i'm laughing... my dad's foreign "godparents" are coming to town... oh yeah... on the 27th this month... *grumbles* that way they cannnot attend the concert... my mum seems extremely excited about it... haha... wonder wad they look lyk now...

hmm....

that's all for now i think...

Be who you realli wanna be

2004-09-08T21:16:00.001+08:00

See the problem with ppl is you don't know whether you are just seeing the surface personality, emotions, etc... how do i know? cause the sickening thing is that's me too... cummon' lorz... believee me or notz... that's every single one of you readin dis, if you think it thru'. maybe you can't see it... you may think it's not true... but it is... you hardly see yourself in the mirror nowadays. just your outer "shell" not your soul. not wad's realli U. sometimes i realli just wanna be myself but then like ppl say under the circumstances i can't. it's pretty pathetic that you can't be yourself infront of other ppl... cause you care too much of wad others say and wad's on their mind. for all i know the person who is your best friend may just be the one that hates you to the core. and in the end you end up feeling bad because you think too much of wad's on other ppl's mind!!! but then again. you want to be yourself. JUST yourself. but being who you wanna be gets you no where. that's why this freaking world is full of hypocrites of all sorts. they didn't invent that word for nothing you know? there's a purpose for everything that's going on. and then it's up to you to choose what you realli wanna do. the masked man or YOU? to care so much bout wad others think and end up feelin' bad all over? no chance!

Haiz... Wad's this?

2004-05-23T19:55:00.000+08:00

Whoa... Wad's this lorz... Not that I wanna keep tokin bout my rudeness personified sister... But if she crashes this com one more bloody time I'm locking access to it. Not that she can take care of things properly... Things in her hand are almost worn away within months... She's getting herself into lots trouble at this rate she going. She used to be so sweet... A sister everyone adored, apple of my parents eyes always in their good books. But now it seems like she's trying to rid herself off the goodie-two-shoes hall of fame... My parents are getting intolerant of her stinking attitude. Wad's the problem? She's getting on my nerves... Not that she never does... But it's getting worse... Dumb girl... Not that she doesn't have the intelligence or wad lorz... She's much better then me... At least that's wad I think...

Ten Reasons Why I Don't Like My Sister

2004-05-22T20:12:00.000+08:00

10. She's irritating. A total pain in the neck. I mean it... Not that have anything negative against her or anything.
Advice: she should try minding her own business sometime... Like now....

9. She doesn't know her limits... She likes to boss ppl around... Come to think of it... She's only my LITTLE sister... Who does she tink she is??
Advice: Get off my back... Before i throw you off!

8. She thinks she has great attitude. Mind you which attitude perfect person shouts over the phone at her elder sis just because she doesn't wanna buy you a pack of fries for lunch?? That's A.P...
Advice: Don't think i don't say anything means you can walk all over me... Watch out. :P

7. She thinks she has perfect style just like her attitude. Come on... She slams the phone lorz... and she's proud of the fact that she can scream it out loud!!! wow...
Advice: There's nothing to b proud of. Especially that...

6.She has mouth with an unstoppable motor... she doesn't know when to speak and when not to... whatever the topics she's bound to have something to comment on it...
Advice: Shut up!!!! Argh!!

5. She gets herself into more trouble then my entire lifetime added up... And thinks that everything's MY fault? I am not her excuse and can never be...
Advice: Find another scapegoat will ya?? Cause this one isn't the right one to be able to tolerate YOU!

4. She acts like the whole world owes her something...
Advice: Well... Wake up will you?? Even if the whole world owes you a million i can't be bothered okay?? Not even if i owe you half of it!! Hmph!!!

3. She likes to ask simple maths but she never likes to listen...
Advice: Next time you come to me... you come with a proper tone and listen to whatever you asked or else don't come looking for me will you???

2. She has got lots of different faces (if you get what i mean)... she's got a don't-come-over-or-you'll-get-it type of face which my parents love to ignore so that they got a chance to say her... she'll get pissed nowadays that they will get lots to say even if they have said it not once, not twice and even a hundred times before... and she's got the i know everything look which irritates me to the core...
Advice: Stay away unless you wanna piss me off....

AND ONE REASON WHY I TOTALLY DISLIKE HER:

1. She loves things to be done her way.... which most of the time isn't how i do things... and she gets away with it... i take all the blame... wow....
Advice: You follow what the majority wanna do... You don't make the majority follow you!

Hihi.... Haiz....

2004-05-21T18:08:00.000+08:00

Hihi... Seriously i think i'm dead meat... my mid year results are back an it's so disappointing... especially chem... cause i thought chem was an okay paper... come back i got 55.5 marks ONLY!!!! i'm so sad... but got ppl worse then me... but i know mum will say cannot lyk tat compare one... she thinks that i am comparing with ppl who are realli worse by alot then me... so now i don't know wad to tell her and how to start going about telling her... sigh... funny thing is that she hasn't asked me about my results... i thought she would... dunno la.... argh!!!

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