10:05 PM
Thursday, December 16, 2004
*sigh*...
*sigh*...
And more sighs....
seriously i don' know wad i'm doing... abit.. is probably bcause i can't sleep before 10.30 nowadays.... alot is because i have no direction in life rite now... or i can't see it.... ritez... sometimes i wonder why i'm going one way or another... sometimes i just wanna stop wadeva i'm doing... most of the time i can't though.... i don't know anything rite this moment... everything that seemed important suddenly doesn't seem so anymore... but i'm not talking about those...
lonely.
lonesome.
lost.
why am i doing this?
??
i don't see the value of doing all this.... but i still do.. i think i very tired... yet so awake... (sound familiar ritez?... maybe not...) no one to talk to... i think i not very extrovert... i'm introvert by nature one.... it's only that if you don't mix around ritez ppl think you cold.... not that i don't like crowds la... but my mood siao siao one... when i really want ppl to talk to normally there isn't anyone around... then feel so empty lyk that... though most of the time i with ppl i don't feel that i wanna be alone... sometimes i can't wait for night to come... alone... i smile... i laugh about... but face ma... lyk a mask lyk that only that it's in your very skin... hypocritical.... i think i very long never write like that already... feeling surpisingly antisocial tonight... after a quite... sort of... sociable day... couldn't wait for the nite to come... yet can't wait for this long nite to end... can't make the morning to come... and still... i'm here... without company...
Can't make the day pass,
Can't tear down the dreadful mask,
Can't just be me,
The one i yearn to see.
Can't wait for the night to come,
Can't wait to see the stars shine in the sapphire sky,
Can't find light in the sky,
Wishing for the morning to come.
Forget it... i don't know why i bother staying online.... sigh... wadeva... i'll be fine tomorrow... cause it's another
nite.